New year with better life paths...

Looking back to 2009...

It wasn't a good year for myself cause of so many hurtful things...

But one I've learnt...is to be strong to accept any challenges in life...

As we grow older, we learn to see things in so many ways...it's the matter of you wanna see it as it is, or look at the better side of things...

I made a promise to myself..., I'll achieve better day by day!

This is the starting of my New Life!

I believe in Christmas!

Yes! I may sound childish...but it's true! Santa does exists...in each of our heart, if only we believe...

Santa has fulfilled my wish...I've got back what I've lost, and I will treasure this every moment...

I may have gone through pain and sorrow...but at least I know my feeling was right all this while.

So let's take baby steps to build back what we've lost...

I cherish every moment we have now my love...

Thank you Santa, for giving me this sweet teddy bear and brought back the better side of me...

Heart Left Empty...

That's how I finally know how I felt all these while...

I've been feeling empty inside since don't know when...I realized whenever I look into people's relationships, I feel so heart-broken and disappointed of my past...

Their beautiful paths which they've been through...happiness and sorrow...

Time can be very tough for them...yet they can still hold to each other closely and went through it, together...not letting one another to fall away.

I've asked myself countlessly...why can't we do it like others? Am I not worth it, like how others do?

...I know for the fact, my heart can't be healed...I just let it bleed till I didn't realized, I've started poisoning it...

I've let out the rebellious side of me...I filled my emptiness with poisons...It really makes me feel happy for a while, cause I don't care about the pain anymore...

I thought I was all over it...yes I did, but not everything.

I don't need you to come back into my life...

I don't wanna know if you still love me...neither do I care if love hits me again...

Cause I am disappointed by love...

What a Christmas...

Woke up in the afternoon today...Didn't feel like going out for breakfast or visit the market.

Such a nice time to rest my mind...but some people just have to interrupt my rest! ISH!

I so wanna go out for a drink...as in non-alcohol drinks. =)

I didn't know that was coming...but never mind, I know you all care...

Really appreciates it...

Hope this weekend would be better for me...

The Other Side of Her...

Those music just happened to rush into her head...

Her body starts to groove along with the music...

Every little sip of liquors brings out the mischievous side in her...

Letting herself drown into the beats and him...

Shared a moment of lust...

New year ahead...

2010 is just around the corner...have you plan what would you achieve for next year?

What is your new year resolution?

I haven't plan mine actually...I'm just looking forward for a year better than now...really.

My day has been peaceful lately...not rush for undone tasks, just simple normal day...I've been loving myself a lot compare to last time...not lot but better than the past.

I really wish I can be a happier person...but very deep down, there lives a little me who's actually frowning of someone I've lost...

My friend said that whoever gets me, would be a very lucky person...Instead of feeling happy, I felt upset...I actually don't wanna hear that anymore. I rather have people not telling me this or better still, no compliments at all...I rather being categorized as an ordinary girl with nothing special in me...

Sounds emo right? I do...

* Santa...hope this Xmas would be a special day for me, hope you could fulfill my wish, nothing more but a wish...

...I miss you.

Life without $$$...

Life without money is like....shits!

It's like you walk out the door...naked. Indeed...I feel so weird not spending on something, at least on food for God's sake! Furthermore I'm like a thirsty vampire now! My appetite's back and definitely my period is coming soon. Since I'm willing to eat more,so better start eating all those I've not eating for long...! I wanna see my high school body figure again!!!

I'm waiting for my Dec cheque now...

I wanna eat...and eat...and EAT!!!

I wanna shop for dresses...pretty heels...sexy jeans...etc!

Oh but first...I must start investing on unit trust!!! *more $$$...ah lala~

...sounds so money-minded...Haha!

Coming back to today...went One Utama,with family...It's not really a good thing walking around with people who don't fancy walking around. Never mind...was about to burst out my anger but I hold it back. Already bit upset with other thing and still have people come play fire with me...

...and you know what? I.FORGET.IT....

Excited yet Nervous! Oh Dear~

Yes! That explains everything...almost. Haha! Oh well tomorrow will be a brand new start...for my "greens" to keep flowing in. :D Oh I just can't wait...Hehe! When I want something, I learnt that I need to work it out to make it happen. So this is where I start and make things fall as how I've planned...Though I'm not God, things can't be control by me but I'll work my ass out, at least I know I've give my best!

I got super long list of things I wanna do...Oh deary~

I need a bloody new HP, with good camera function, WiFi & just a god damned Phone! argh!

Next is a laptop...I'm sick of fighting with my siblings to use the PC...

I think the list isn't gonna end here...LMAO!

.....................................somehow you still appear on my mind...& I miss you...so much.